New Life

Hi uolss . Everyone is busy with their new life . So do I .

So, how's everyone ?

I just finished my orientation gaiss which we called MPPB . 

Orientasi lebih kurang jk ngan masa form 1 dolok masa gk zaman Nazri Jebat 

Maybe pack sikit la almaklum dah besar kan . Hahaha

But , I have to admit that suddenly , I miss school , i miss sains miri , i miss the teachers , i miss the environment , and most of it i miss my fellow RESPLENDENT , also the most important is my dearest FAMILY . To make it short , i miss everyone .

Its been a long day without all of you guys .

Hey , i Miss u guys .

Sometimes , aku kedirik x cayak yg aku dah sambung belajar .

Truth to be told , masa orientasi i dont know why , my mind kept saying i was in a camp .

Sebab , mmg rasa kedak dlm kem kepimpinan jk . Trust me .

Lamak juak la aku ambik masa utk tukar mindset yg aku dh masuk new phase of life .

Part paling susah iz nak cari kawan masa fes fes masuk . I think its normal right , yalah bila aku x tauk sapa gk org senegeri and bila aku tauk ada sorang jk yg dikenal , ya pun lelaki .
But , yes kita dh besar , org cakap matured enough so pandai pandailah cari kawan kan .

Ada masa aku pun rasa down juak sampe kekadang aku tepike kenak aku pilih tk , kenak aku masuk sitok . Rasa menyesal kdg kdg muncul sampe aku rasa fed up dan jatuh tersungkur .
Tapi , logik la sikit kan sikkan aku nak mengalah , belum start kelas gk pun . Just to let you know , aku ada jumpa sigek lagu barbie tok tek nya nang kena la ngan hidup aku kinek tk and nya membangkitkan semangat hidup aku . Hahahah hebat sik ?
Yalah tiap kali aku rasa down , aku akan bukak lagu ya dan menghayati . Cewahh hahaha.
Bah esok iz my first class .
Assalammualaikum .

Fate ?

Confused .

Basically yes there are offers from private universities which i will and strictly reject without a second thought .

Well enough to give you a hint tho .

Saying goodbye to unimas wasnt that easy .

Now , im counting days to go to ipik .

Part of me wanted to proceed to unimas but the other part of me said its okay to go to ipik . Maybe my first ambition is to be a teacher . Well its fun you know , you got many presents during teachers day . But it was back then when you were 8 years old . All you know was to have fun . 

No i cant regret this decision either . Everytime i got hint , it always pointed to teacher if you know what i mean .

In the end , parents know the best dont they ?

Maybe i was destined to be a teacher maybe  ? In sha Allah . And doctor or engineer are just not meant for me ?

Just like , you cant have what you want right ? 

Sometimes , things just not meant for us .

Like, for example if fairy or fairy godmather did exist they just not meant for you or me either . Why ? Because it was for Cinderella . If the fairy is for you , there's no way cinderella could go to the ball , left her shoe  , and in the end live happily ever after with the prince just like the story told us . She might now still live in the house and treat as a servant by her stepmother and stepsisters if the fairy was meant for you .

See ? Didnt it say enough that some things just not meant for us .

That's why im trying to be positive .

But , sometimes i just cant . It become worst when i heard other people can choose on their own and do what they want . 

No , no one forced me like if i dont do this , dont call me blablabla , if i refused , i cant blablabla . 

Its not im trying to rebel here . But pardon me if you are reading this as i was rebelling . So if you have the same problem as mine or you cant even detect my problem here , never mind . But if you do , just be positive , change the way you think and live your life as wonderful as you wanted it to be .